Over Thinking

Lately I've been over thinking E V E R Y T H I N G-.- I hate it so much and I wish I could just snap out of it but I just can't :( I've been like this for most of my life. It's natural to over think a couple of things but when you mix anxiety problems in with the mix it can be deadly. 

If you go through this you'll probably understand but every little thing that could possibly happen I think of. If I'm walking into town to go to a shop to get something then I over think every little thing and make myself feel like rubbish before having to leave. For example say if I was going into town my mind would do this:

What If I forget my purse.
What if my bags too heavy and makes my back worse.
What If I'm sick.
Do I have a sick bag?
How many sick bags do I need.
What if a sick bag has a hole in it when I'm being sick.
What if I can't get a bag out in time.
What If I'm sick in the street.
People are gonna laugh and stare at me.
What if I am sick on the floor what do I do?
People are going to think I'm disgusting.
What If I pass out?
What if I pass out and knock myself out.

That's all just before I leave the house let alone when I'm walking. People don't understand how hard it can be to even leave the house and meet people when you have bad anxiety. I got so bad before that I couldn't leave my house because I was too scared that something bad would happen. I know how hard it is and for those people who I have managed to leave the house to see best feel privileged because it is so hard and its physically and emotionally exhausting trying to build the courage up to go outside.

If you are going through this yourself and you feel trapped and alone don't worry. It does get a little easier to empty your head. It's took me a long time to do it but don't give up because I couldn't leave the house before and now I can. I know I still have alot of thoughts running through my head but I am leaving the house. Sometimes I can't quite make it out but other times I do. If I ever have to go out by myself I put my earphones in and listen to music and think about dance routines or out on some midnight beast and the thong song to make me laugh and cheer me up. It sounds silly but these little distractions are amazing.

If I start to feel a little scared, paranoid or anxious then i simply just just tap my thumb with my index finger or middle finger and If I really need to snap out of the situation I will tap with my nail but I don't do it hard enough to hurt myself its just simply a distraction. Different things work for different people so just try and find a way for you to do it and it'll take a little pressure off.

It's extremely terrifying and it feels like you wont ever get out of it but it just takes time but you'll get there. I'll be there going through it with you every step of the way too. We can all get through this and we can all do it together.

If you ever need someone to help encourage you just personal message me on twitter- @Char_Louise_H